A strange dream

It said that dreams refered a part of human mind. They could tell us about a different view of our life. They could reflect our thoughts, our feeling which we hided in real life. Even someone said that dreams could give us messages about one's future. When I was young I didn’t believed these things. Even I often showed unrespected views to mysterious things. I kept uninterestedness about dream until five years ago an odd dream arrived to me and it made me change much of thoughts about the dreams later.

That night, I was sleeping well next my friend. I had spent nights without sleep to care her. She had spent a serious surgery so she had needed a special attention. I was likely only person who could be near her in that time because no one of her relations knew about her situation. The closest friend of her, a doctor, was so busy for his work that he couldn’t spend so much time to take care her. I didn’t intend to sleep. I was afraid she would have no help when I was sleeping and if I even wanted to sleep a little, there was no bed or something was suitable for me to lie down. In my room, all beds were full of patients. I felt tired so much. My friend realized my condition. She suggested me lie next her. Surely she couldn’t have done the same few days before because she had been too weak to do anything even talking. Then her health became better and she could talk to me. “You look so tired.. You need sleeping. We can stay in bed together…” she said softly. I denied because there was actually no enough time to know each other and I was afraid I could carelessly touch her injury when I was sleeping. However the tiredness won me. Tiredness and happy feeling made I sleep quickly. I was happy because I could be so close to her who I loved. I had really the most excellent sleep that I hadn’t ever had before. Perhaps I would completely have a good night if there was not that fact.

Midnight I suddenly woke up by a nightmare. I dreamed I had a violent fight with a man whom I had hated so much. He had cheated me out my valuable money many years ago when I had been just a poor student. I shouted loudly and struggled. I used all of my energy to attack him wildly. I didn’t know what happened if that dreams was going on to the end. Perhaps I would have annoyed all of patient and their relationships around. Even I could attack my friend who was next me. Fortunately the dream went out soon and everything was still rather silent when I looked around. I perspired so much. That time my face showed terror extremely. There had been no dream made me nervous like that. My friend woke up. She looked me worriedly. “What’s the matter with you?” she asked. “I have just gotten a bad dream… But I'm still okie” I said. I was afraid she would be worry about me. However there were something appeared in my mind instantly I became calm. I wondered: “Why does this dream come to me at this time when I’m feeling happy most?”. In fact, I had forgotten that sad memory for a long time. At that time all thing I could think about were my friend and her health. The things happened in that dream were so strange to me. However I had little time to think about that. The tiredness made me lie down. But I couldn’t sleep easily. I put my friend on my chest. The warmness from her hand gave me a calm feeling and I could sleep again. After that night, I decided that that nightmare was random accident without my intent and the most important I should think about was my friend. I didn’t know that dream was a sign of a crucial thing would happen later.

I was far from her since the day I was sure that she became healthy completely. It was one of the hardest decisions I had had to make. I knew that she could have a boyfriend who was better than me. Her closest friend, who had taken her to the hospital and had spent most of her hospital fee for surgery was really one of kindest men I had met. I went to a remote place to avoid them. I had sad days. Sometime I thought about things I had spent including my strange dream. I wondered that why all that things happened to me. I had no relevant answer for that question until one day I randomly discovered a secret.

One evening, I was front of the computer. Much of questions about life made I decide to try Google to find out the answer. It was the first time I did a thing like it. I hoped that I could find out something. I typed words such as dream, omen… Many things looked like what I wanted appeared in the display. I read a lot. Finally I paid a special attention on an article about the sign of something would happen in the future. There were many of items, one of them have a topic had meaning like my strange dream – dream about violent. Nervously I click on that link. I scanned content of that topic word by word. And then I was dramatically amazed for all I saw then. I couldn’t believe in my eyes though I read it many time. Separation was mean of my dream. Lines of that article became blurring by my tears. I cried. Unexpectedly my sad story had been informed to me before it happened. It was so strange. I hadn’t ever believed in mystical things but that day I had to believe in that.

Now my mind has changed so much. My views about the life have gotten more differences. It seems that I have become more idealistic. In fact, I don’t prejudice against mystical theory which I always negated or prejudiced. However I don’t believe in mystical things blindly. I’m pleased to have relevant answer for a part of my question. Hopefully I will not have the same dream in the future.